this is my fave song, the last time i heard this song was abt a decade ago, but i still remembered the lyrics, the video clip, the song. It is a beautiful song. All praise goes to google n limewire, i finally got my song!

HEAVEN-NU FLAVOR(1997)

Heaven, heaven oh heaven can’t you help me
I looked in her eyes now she’s all I see
Heaven oh heaven can’t you help me
I’m down on my knees please help me

First time I saw you girl,
You turn me upside down
I can’t stop thinking bout you
My head is spinning round
I got to find a way to get with you somehow
Girl I’m so crazy for you
You know I want you now
And every minute of every single day
I’m dreaming of how we could be
And every night before I go to sleep
I’m praying that soon you’ll be here with me

Chorus
Heaven, heaven oh heaven can’t you help me
I looked in her eyes now she’s all I see
Heaven oh heaven can’t you help me
I’m down on my knees please help me

Can’t fall asleep tonight
I don’t know what to do
I hold my pillow but I wanna be holding you
And when close my eyes I always see your face
I know my happiness is only a kiss away
And every hour here in the dark
Every beat of my lonely heart
Tells me that I need to be with you
Heaven oh heaven what can I do

Chorus
Heaven, heaven oh heaven can’t you help me
I look in her eyes now she’s all I see
Heaven oh heaven can’t you help me
I’m down on my knees help me

La primera ves que te mire no eh podido dormir
tu estas en mi corazon y en mis suenos
que cada noche le pido a Dios
que nos guarde junto para siempre

Girl I’d give anything if you were here with me
Give anything you want and anything you need
I never thought that I could feel the way I do
But now I wanna spend the rest of my life with you
And every day that we are apart
I’m saving this love here in my heart
And every night before I go to sleep
I’m praying that soon you’ll be here with me

Chorus
Heaven, heaven oh heaven can’t you help me
I looked in her eyes now she’s all I see
Heaven oh heaven can’t you help me
I’m down on my knees please, heaven

Heaven, heaven oh heaven can’t you hear me
I’m giving my love for eternity
Heaven oh heaven can’t you help me
I’m down on my knees please help me

Nowadays i just dun care about ppl oredi. Nak buat ape pun buat je la. I mean its ur life, not mine rite. y shud i care. But pls dun screw wif me, i dun like it.

I am patient, yes, when i get mad i cry, yes, n u will never know i cried cos of wat u did. But then, i hv a level to my patience. U get above it, there is no way  i can describe wat i will say to u.

i m not ur clown. dun mess around wif me, dun play wif me like i am ur amusement toy. I hv feelings, n anger is also a feeling. N yes i can express that feeling, n i  wont be responsible for the hurt i will cost u.

B4 i use to bother so much of who is talking to me, who is not? Who copies, who does not? But seriusly, how the hell is that gonna affect me? Their wish la want they want to do wif their life kan. Who am i to say “screw u!”

nowadays i avoid ppl who keep making my BP high. Just avoid, n i run my life my way. Nowadays, kalo nak cakap biar ade sebab yg munasabah. If not, just shut ur damn mouth, Maalini. I dun wan anymore trouble wif any1

But seriusly, this is my opinion, guys make better frens than (most)girls. Guys got no PMS, no mood swings, no i-hate-myself mood n they hv no comments to give u unless u ask them for one. They r more simple, But then again not all guys r the same. Sum r hot-tempered n hv huge ego, well the hot-tempered i boleh layan, the huge ego i hv 3 words for them  but i will not say it here.

But even that, i dun care  oredi. I mean ur ego, ur egola. I seriusly dun wanna put it down ke, boost it up ke. I dun wanna correct any1’s mistake. Let them learn by themselves. I hv had enuff of saying “maybe u shud…” n for wat. To get back a slap on the face.

Nowadaysi m happy wif the way i live. My small, independant peaceful life. Enuff of heart breaks by ppl i call “best fren”. Twice kena oredi, dun wan anymore la. Tak tahan oredi. Sakit!!! So no more best fren, just frens, n thats as far as it gets,

i know i tend to get too close wif ppl. But now it has changed. i learnt my lesson. I hv to put myself first, if i dun take care of myself, no one else will. About caring for others, thats a good trait of mine that is now in hibernating mode. Will only restart it in M’sia, ppl there r much more worth while in my life. Nowadays, its a hi, necessary talk, then chiao!

Sum ppl here r very close to my heart, for them there r exceptions of coskan.

Anyways, b4 i end this ridiculous blog, HAPPY DIWALI Y’ALL!!!

 

One picture is all it took to bring all the good memories back. Thanks to technology n facebook. It was a class picture of my form 6 class. My form 6 days, two of the last jolly happy years of my life. The two last years when i went to school by the same school bus i was taking for 5 years previously. The last two years i got to wear my white n blue uniform. The last two years when i went to recess with just RM 2 in my pocket for the day. The last two years when tuition was sumthing vital.

I miss those days, i was happy, problem free, free of cooking, free of washing dishes, just FREEE!!!. I alwiz wanted to go to school to be wif my classmates, n we wud all “YAAAAAAAAAAAMMMMMM SSSSSSSSENGGGG!!!” together. All of us will lift up our water bottles n toast although only one of us wanted to drink. It was fun, we were 6 science 1 n we proved that we were number one in making lots of noise. There was once i think, the teacher from the opposite block came to our class to tell us we were noisy, LIKE WE CARED!!!

MUET was every1 ” favourite” subject. We had a pervert for a teacher,  he was stubborn-headed, alwiz wanted to prove himself right, and he alwiz talked about sex. There was a time when he refuse to teach our class, n he never came in at all for the forthcoming schooling days, again, LIKE WE CARED!!!

The ones that bring a smile to my face are errrrr…errr…EVERYONE. Seriously!!! Every1 had their personal trait of humor. But the one all of us love the most was MR.JP, OUR BELOVED CLASS N PHYSICS TEACHER. He was a great physics teacher, making fun of us all the time, all of us were mocked by him. But to think about it now, it’s a sweet memory,

We were sitting for our STPM, but u cud never see any of us sitting down bending towards the book. It was a rare situation, to ever see us like that, we alwiz had sumthing to talk about, sumthing to laugh about, sum1 to irritate. The other form six classes were filled wif hardworking ppl, but ours wasnt, sum of the teachers were amazed. Our bio teacher compared us wif 6 sc 4(who were really i mean, REALLY HARDWORKING), we didnt care.

OH YES, HOW CAN I FORGET Mrs,TAN?!!! She was suppose to be our Chemistry teacher but she thought us more about life than chemistry. At the end of each Chemistry class, we found out another way to kill ourselves.

(sigh) There is just so much to say, but i hv an exam in nine days time, so i shall stop here.

Yesterday n today, i makan makan makan tapi tak masak! How cum? All thanks to my darling friends who invited me to their open rooms & open floors.

Yesterday lunch was provided by, Azrina, Filzah, Erna and Wani. SEDAP GILER BEB!!! Their chicken rice n orange sponge cake was my fave. I was like makan makan makan, cudnt stop.  (NO wonder gemuk!!) 

Then had rest a bit from makaning for about 4 hours. Lapar balik dah! Then go to another open house, the third floor + Zakiah n Maisara punyer open house. My groupmate, Syahir masak Burgerdel, sedap sedap! Then there was roti telur, made by Syirun, not bad. I was too full till at a point i had to walk so that i dun let it out.

U guys thank u so much for inviting me. SELAMAT HARI RAYA. Lisa here i cum to ur open house pulak!!

Lesson learnt:

never assume that sum1 knows u well just cos u hv spent a great deal of time wif them

never expect ppl to treat u the same way u hv treated them

dun ask a question more than once just cos u think u can get the answer that way, or just cos the person may look like they r in a good mood

dun underestimate any form of facial expression (espc one that looks “ok”)

dun think that everyday is a sunny day ; for u and espc for sum1 else

if sum1 jumps at u just cos u asked a question, leave it at that & dun bother explainin urself. cos most of the time its not ur fault, u just bcame the scape goat

dun get too attached to sum1, unless u r absolutely 100% sure they suit u

everybody deserves a second chance, n thats all they get

the most important person in the “Room of Life” is u

u r u, dun change urself for any1 else, just cos u think u can suit them better

DUN EVER put any1(except ur family) before u, sooner or later they might dump u n leave u behind, to rot

nobody is special, every1 has their own flaws, so dun give special treatment

the person called best friend dun exist(at least in my life)

trying to help sum when u know they dun wanna help themself is utter stupidity, cos u become the person to be blamed in the end

mind ur own business, n make sure others do the same when it comes to ur business

if there is sum1(by any slight chance), happens to get u n who u r, appreciate them, but dun over do it

if sum1 loves u n u love them too, treasure them, appreciate them, cos it might be the one n only person who cares about u n understands u